music

I was walking in Paris few days ago (yes, it happens to me quite a lot as I think that metro stinks.. sorry) and suddenly I realized that I passed by already 3 guys who were singing. I mean singing in their own private way, not mental-scary that makes you willing to be somewhere else.. now:) It was even cute. But when I walked and I saw a policeman singing I realized that its just a period when Star Academy or La Nouvelle Star open their gates for all those who wish to become famous. I have nothing against, I love Star Academy! It saved me last year when I moved to Paris and I lived on 15m2, on 6th floor and I didnt know anyone, apart from my boyfriend. Which meant that Friday nights I was at home, locked with some fastfood and tv... and Fridays are those days when la StarAc scheduled their "finals". I was a huge fan of all of them, I think I missed only few (including the final final but thats not the point). It was mine and new. I could watch other people trying to look cool instead of thinking that I left all my friends in Poland and that sometimes I wished I have never left my hometown. So while my friends were getting drunk in Krakow, I was discovering alone french music in Paris, only through music, I had no idea who was the original singer or why this song is so important in France (apart from Edith Piaf's songs). I was so lost in speaking/understanding media french that I wasnt even able to pick up the name of the song that I liked.
now I live on second floor, with a flatmate, I meet people and I dont have tv. But some songs from those Fridays stayed in me and I was looking here and there trying to find them. And then! I read a book called "Hell" by Lolita Pille, normally not even worth mentioning here but.. thanks to that book I finally discovered The Song:
"avec le temps" by Leo Ferre.
and then finally... I could finally listen to it, at home, in bed and just cherish the moment but..
I got the original version and.. I simply dont like it! Quickly I have found the version made by Marina from last year's StarAc and everything came back to places..
because sad songs have to be sung in high tones!*
and most of the male singers, they just simply dont have it.. I am not a specialist in music (and I shouldnt be, there is already one in my life) but I know what makes me cry.. and how it should be done..

It is the only song on my playlist at the moment and it goes and goes... and I feel calm..

Someone else is sad, again I dont have to think of me and my life..


*but now when I listen again to original version I think that low tunes are OK after all... Men know how to sing about suffering but... I mean, I think I just need more emotional version of this special song.. or Im just going to listen both, one after another...:)