Application anxiety

today at 15h45 I have sent the first application-


Poland and Sweden: Euroculture program.

and I made a mistake in it..

changes..

So I came back to Krakow for almost two weeks and I finally got the reason why I shouldn't have stayed so long.

At first, everything looked quite OK, my family happy, my friends wanting to meet me, my boyfriend texting me about how much he misses me- perfect. But while days were passing by all those people seemed to getting used to me being around and this whole "woow my friend from Paris came to Krakow for a while" thing faded away... I looked more tired, less glamour and in general worse. and then we went to my grandmother for a dinner.

We are sitting at the table and I've noticed that my dad is looking way to carefully on my face.. and then he spoke:

baby, I think your teeth are not straight... maybe we should do something about it?

what???huh???my what???not what???excuse me???and then one thought:
FORGET ABOUT BRACES!!!!Im 25 for heaven's sake! Im too old to have to struggle with my low self confidence plus new shiny braces! and what about my boyfriend??what about my sex life??what about???OH MY GOD!!I cant go back to Paris with braces!!!its PASSE!! you just dont wear them anymore...

but my dad decided, I need to see a specialist so she can decide whether I should wear braces or not.. so I went and I used all my charm and smile (not too wide though), I even tried to bribe her.. nothing...

today at 17h30 I am going to try my new... I cant even say that...
the good thing is that I will not wear braces, its something different, something that I can take out.. for few hours...
the bad thing is that I should not make breaks longer than 8hours and that my "treatment" will last at least one year...

me staying somewhere longer

My friends told me
that I can not really stay long in Krakow anymore,
that if it happens that I can stay more than 5days I will always find some places to go to visit someone else..

I do not think I quite agree on that matter.

Only because I am going tomorrow to Warsaw to see my cousin and then to Breslau to meet my friend from a highschool makes me a person who has to move all the time??after all, when I come back from Krakow, I will be in Paris whole two weeks before I fly to Chicago...


I went to see a head doctor- she told me that I just need to relax and all this dizziness will go away.. after I told her why I might be a bit stressed recentely, she gave me some pills*...

Untill mid- july, I guess I am officially on drugs:D



*at least I thought they were pills, it seemed way more dramatic, when I went to the pharmacy i realized it was just some liquid medicament to ease my headaches:D

Ziutek...

yesterday at night  my brother's rat Ziutek died..
maybe I was not the biggest fan of... it... but still, house seems a bit too quiet without Ziutek..


but knowing my brother, he will buy something even more gross and scary for those few days Im staying in Krakow...

drinking vodka is like riding a bike..

So I came back on Friday and almost straight from the airport I went to a surprise birthday party of my best friend.. I was actually also part of this surprise as I usually live in Paris and I miss all the occasions like this, pretty depressive as it comes to think of it.. but hey, my choices:)
anyway, I came to see my friends on Friday and on Saturday and here are some good things about not living in Krakow:

1. you get compliments- I mean always !! 

-if you loose on weight your friends will be pleased to announce me that I have never looked better in my life
-if you put on weight, the same friends (now mostly guys) would say that my tits have never looked better in my life

you see?always a compliment:)

2. you get full gossip package, you dont have to fool around for weeks to hear every hairy detail of the story of why she doesnt talk with her and when the other has started to sleep with that guy and why the first hates the third one and because of which guy.. you get it all well served with some starters and dessers in some comments on the case.

3. you can talk rubbish and drink vodka like a debutant and they will all love you and cherish you because its more important that you have stayed alive in this country of wine and frogs than the fact that you dont drink vodka as you used to.

4. you get to meet people you have not met for really long time, exemple?

more than two years ago I went to Iceland, where among other things I met my boyfriend, on my way to and from I stopped in London to visit my friend- yesterday we met, after more that two years and now there is this thing about loosing on weight and all that:

he did not recognize me

I think this stay in Krakow is going to be....

LEGE......

wait for it...

NDARY!!!!

LEGENDARY!!!!

YES! YES! YES!

And now officially I am on holidays:)

I am soo tired so with my boyfriend we have decided to start drinking a bit later.. first we need some sleep... and I think especially my boyfriend.. after all he had read all my essay last night and if you ask me I would not recomend it as the best before-go-to-bed lecture..

but its done, and my boyfriend did not decide to leave me and my essay alone...

so CHEERS!!!!

/in a few hours.../

today?tomorrow?

Tomorrow at 15h00 I start to drink.. with a small pause for the flight on Friday afternoon. Im coming to Krakow!!!!
Tomorrow at 14h30 I turn in my last paper...
at 12h00 I turn in my main paper, the one that I hate soo much right now and that I dont want to see nor read until the end of may... the one that will decide if I can go on with my studies in Paris or not...
its pretty stressy but...


everything will happen tomorrow and today?
Today I have the last exam, I need to turn in one paper and finish my conclusion part...

and tomorrow....



:)



/I can go on like this for ages, actually I've been doing that since I started to stress myself about my future.... so today.... as tomorrow..../